Flavors of the Week

Dear Readers,

I feel like I really don't belong here. Like I'm supposed to be someplace else. I know it doesn't make any sense. But, I have often dreamed of a far off place, where a great warm welcome will be waiting for me. Where the crowds will cheer when they see my face, and a voice keeps saying "this is where I'm meant to be." I will find my way, I can go the distance. I'll be there someday, if I can be strong. I know every mile will be worth my while. I would go most anywhere to feel like I belong. Here.

This week has been so emotionally trying. I've eaten my feelings everyday (which is not good, let me tell ya'). I just can't shake the events that happened on Monday. I'm just like:
Boring bubble child? I don't buy that. If only they'd look closer. Would they see a lame girl? No sir'ee. They'd find out there's so much more to me. Here.

Self-esteem is so hard to come by these days. Especially when you've spent your entire life building it up, only to have one boy knock you down, ten feet below. How am I supposed to grow to my full potential if the words "you are deformed, and you are ugly" echo in the back of my head? It's not that I have a problem with my self image. I don't. But how can you listen to a boy tell you that because of your innocence and child-like personality you are an outcast? I just want to feel proud of who I am. Here.

I feel like that horse, Spirit. They should just sound the bugle now. Play it just for me. As the seasons change, remember how I used to be. Now I can't go on, I can't even start. I've got nothing left, just an empty heart. I'm a soldier, wounded so I must give up the fight. There's nothing more for me, lead me away--or leave me lying here. Sound the bugle now, tell them I don't care. There's not a road I know that leads to anywhere. With a light I fear that I will stumble in the dark, lay right down and decide not to go on. Then from on high, somewhere in the distance, there's a voice who calls "Remember who you are! If you lose yourself, your courage soon will follow. So be strong tonight, remember who you are." Yeah! You're a soldier now, fighting in a battle. To be free once more? Yeah, that's worth fighting for. Here.  That voice? That was Alex. She was totally there for me this week. 

And now I'm back to my normal self: Here.

I hope you enjoyed my very disney week. God bless us, everyone. Stay tuned for a happier weekend next Saturday. Love to you all. xoxo